Words I can't say right now

As I said before, certain song, certain lyrics express things that I cant say. They speak the words that I cant speak.

"Young and full of running
Tell me where has that taken me?
Just a great figure eight or a tiny infinity?"

Being young and in Love. Every time I fall in Love I cant help but wonder where it is going, if its going to go anywhere at all. A great figure eight? Will I be circling this same path into something worth while or and I doomed to an infinity of heartbreak?

"Love is really nothing
But a dream that keeps waking me
For all of my trying, we still end up dying
How can it be?"

Is Love something that's real or is it just a dream, a "delusional fantasy"? We walk through life with this goal of finding true Love. Of finding something worth living for. Someone worth living for. We try so hard but in the end was it ever worth it? And if it is worth it and we do end up finding that person, things still don't last, we still die.....

"Don't say a word, just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me"

Finding that one person, and wanting that one person regardless of the situation. Your willing to change and fix yourself to what they want but then afraid that no matter what you do you may never be what they want or need.

"So young and full of running
All the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming
I have to have you now"

Need, it all comes down to need.

"Wired and I'm tired
Think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
Or maybe this mattress will spin on its axis
And find me on yours"
When they're gone, they are all you can think about and you would do anything to have them with you. Have them with you at that very moment. To have them hold you and comfort you. To feel they're love and to feel that they need you as much as you need them.

So many things I wish I could say. So many things I wish I could talk about and explain. But I cant.... So I sing